Thank you for the messages of support on the boards and by PM... its odd but up till a couple of weeks ago I thought I was doing okay... I'd got out a couple of times and all was well... but something went "Ping" in me head t'other week and was right low... when I looked at the calendar on mo day and saw it would have been me dads birthday tomorrow I lost it...
I think I'd been fooling meself thinking I was okay ,when the reality is I'm not... I feel bloody daft because I know there are folks far worse of than me... perhaps 40 years of shifts have screwed my perception of what is actually okay and whats not... I was certainly struggling 2 years ago just before I retired and since then everything that caused an issue was forgotten... now with all this crud going on it seems to have returned with a vengeance...
Thanks for all the goodwill lads, it certainly helps..